FEAR vs DREAMS inspired by TWLOHA

The big questions, the toughest questions, the most exposing questions are the simplest ones. 

“To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide.  TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.”

They recently came out with a new campaign. Fear vs Dreams. You are the main character in your story! You are important. And so, they ask…. What is your biggest fear? What is your greatest dream?

At first glance, these are easy questions, but then, when you reflect on it…. I have many fears, and many dreams. What are the two most significant?  Suddenly these seemingly simple questions transform into a soul searching debate with in one’s self.

Fear : It is easy to say that my biggest fear is something terrible happening to any of my children. I live with fear that tomorrow will be the day that changes our lives, as far as Kailey and her health go. BUT… if i am to be HONEST that fear is our reality, and so… it is not the biggest fear, because we know that at some point it will happen.

My biggest fear for myself, is that after years of searching for seclusion, and finally breaking free from my own restraints, that I end up somehow alone. I fear that I will eventually isolate myself and become a bigger introvert than ever. This is a fear that grips me. It is a fear that has come to fruition before in my life and I know that I can easily shut down again. I know this to be true, and I know that I have tendencies, even now… to just shut down and hide. 

I love that I have reclaimed myself, my life, and that I am not only social but happily so. I have come to enjoy  my daily interactions with people more than I ever expected possible. I do not want that to end. It is my biggest fear that I end up back in that place of despiar, and it is a place that I put myself in each and every time. Self destruction. I fear myself.

My greatest dream : Perhaps I need more than 12 hours to reflect upon my greatest dream. At the moment, I dream of a life filled with bliss. My biggest dream is to be able to not sweat the small stuff, and enjoy every aspect of life with out the nagging pessimistic views that I see the world through. I do not dream of ignorance, or some sort of altered reality. I simply dream of a life where each thing thrown my way is taken in stride. I dream of, and work daily on finding the beauty in a day, despite the ugliness that surrounds it.

So, what is your biggest fear? What is your greatest dream? What is holding you back?


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